And I wonder Why

You hate being asked why

But then, you do quiver

When a lonely star tears apart

Into the shrill silence of the night!

Why?

Love Me The Way I Am

You seek in me an ideal
That you claim you know
And however hard you probe
You just need an excuse to empathize.

Perhaps you grew up with it
To seek excellence in your partner,
The best traits of each human
Blending to make an ideal.

The ideal you seek is self-correcting
It continually builds as you experience
Life in its immense complexities.

However, your lofty ideal burdens on me.
A small mortal and no God,
I am a person, a process, which grows
And changes with time, or shall I say
With love, tolerance and belief
And with pain, anger and inconvenience.

You may like me to be someone else
And whatever verdict you finally pass,
You have a right to be correct.

Care for me or tear my heart
But look deep within,
There are no images of your ideal,
Only blood that continually sizzles
To change each part of my body
With a love that appreciates you
In the way you are 

Surrogate

Your illusive love
Impregnated my heart.
Now I can feel the first pangs
Of your sprouting denials
In my womb.


I live in your womb...

Reminiscence

Blowing the ashes of incinerated hopes
She sits on her debris musing
His damp lips on her forehead
Was the kiss of death

Obstinate

Surrounded by the aftermaths
Of the untimely tornado,
I marvel at my tenacity;
My stubbornness to outlast.

Oddity

The small dark moles on your right arm
And at the same spot, on my left…
Are we mirror images of each other
Or just a contradiction???

Lost Last Words

You seek in me an ideal
That you claim you know
And however hard you probe
You just need an excuse to empathize.

Perhaps you grew up with it
To seek excellence in your partner,
The best traits of each human
Blending to make an ideal.

The ideal you seek is self-correcting
It continually builds as you experience
Life in its immense complexities.

However, your lofty ideal burdens on me.
A small mortal and no God,
I am a person, a process, which grows
And changes with time, or shall I say
With love, tolerance and belief
And with pain, anger and inconvenience.

You may like me to be someone else
And whatever verdict you finally pass,
You have a right to be correct.

Care for me or tear my heart
But look deep within,
There are no images of your ideal,
Only blood that continually sizzles
To change each part of my body
With a love that appreciates you
In the way you are.

Timeless Interlude

Somewhere an ode is born
Elsewhere a tear dropped
Both in union of silence
Each unique in itself

Far away a heart beats softly
Closer, another beats in pain
Both in union of timelessness
Though unique in themselves

There a cuckoo strikes a melody
Here a lonely sparrow chirps
Both in union of sweetness
Meaningless but unique in oneself

All at once a voice is heard
Here a murmur, a hum so lively
Both in union selflessness
Knowing its unconditional fondness


Isar

Sincerely Yours

I love you not
But I know not why
That when I see you
I feel so high

I care for you not
But why is it so
That when you are not fine
My spirits seem so low

I hardly think of you
But little I guess why
That when I think of you
My worries just pass by

I neither love you nor I care
I know not what I abhor
But finally I firmly conclude
You are the one I adore

Isar

She and I

She, I can hardly express
And I, Know not who I am
She, I care more than myself
And I, An uncared man I am

She, Is prettier than the rose is
And I, A black cloud in her life
She, I wish to see her smiling
And I, Smiles I would sacrifice

She, I am forever in her debt
And I, For her alone I have wept
She, Her eyes are what I long for
And I, Tears my eyes have longed for

She, I long to see today
And I, Know not what tomorrow is
She, I know is my future
And I, Doubt what my future is

She, I Know is my life
And I, Doubt what my life is
She, I can die for
And I, Death is what my end is…


Isar

Seeking You

I sit here smiling
Reading that beautiful line
Weeping in my heart
Still imagining you are mine

Your words made it clear
You belong to someone else
But I am still quite firm
And know, love is no less

I know I am yours
You say you are not mine
But you said it once before
Winds can change their course

I guess you know my state
In you I have found a friend
I want to live a life
Do you wish to see it end?


Silent are the paths of love
If it’s true and there’s a sign
I am sure I’ll win you someday
And change the course of your line

Isar

Promise Me

I want you to make me a promise
A promise that is oh so true
I want you to love me forever
And keep your love forever new

I want you to promise me the stars
The stars as the gleam of our life
I want you to shine like the moon
And smile like the sun in the dune

I promise that I shall die
And it shall only happen for you
But that would only happen if;
If you promise to be true

I swear that the promises I made
Would be true and forever new
But you too promise that you,
Would fulfill them when they are due

Isar

A Prayer

Today I prayed for our future
Yes; today for both of us I prayed
Today I thanked for the past
And wept for our friendship to last

Today, Why today, did I pray?
And, especially for us, why?
Yes, I remember last night
In my dreams was a scary sight

You were weeping in streams
And I was covered with flowers
You were out of control
As I was lowered in dust

You then faced the world
And the world showered sympathy
You were left alone for tears
And hardly passing years

No, But this was just a dream
A nightmare more for me
How could this ever happen?
How can I leave alone thee?

Hence, today I prayed
That we live and die together
I hope the almighty hears
My prayers, My voice and my fears

Isar

My Future

She’s that sweet little girl
Who’ll someday be my world
Who’ll someday be my part
Staying always in my heart

She’s that cute little pearl
Who’ll someday light my life
Who’ll someday bring fortune
Staying always with me in tune

She’s that pretty little song
Who’ll someday sing my words
Who’ll someday hum my voice
Staying long after my demise

She’s that pure shining angel
Who’ll be with me in death
Who’ll be with me forever
Staying by my side in heaven

Isar

Insane

My love increases day by day
It has grown more than yesterday
And yesterday was much more
Considering the fact of day before

In coming days it may double
The intensity may be so high
I may have to check the inflow
So that it doesn’t overflow

In months and years God knows
What it will be like loving you
I may become so very lazy
Or your fondness may make me crazy

I prefer not to be lazy
Because you know if you do so
It’ll be hard meeting you
And our dates will be very few

I hence would like to be crazy
Uttering foolishly your name
Thinking of you day and night
And loving you with all my might

Isar

Awaiting the day

What is life?
A spark, just a flame
And what is death
A stone engraved name

Life, a joy of a day
Live laugh and cry
But death an immortal act
Truly called a living fact

Life, a pain for some
To live, a joy for others
Death has mysteries a lot
No one could explain what

Faith alone keeps us alive
But still we fear the dark day
When we shall bid goodbye to all
And finally the dusk will fall

So why my friend, do you fear death
Take it as a mystery to come
Because the fact still remains
Peace always follows pains

Isar

Summer Breeze

The sun shines so often
But hardly does it lighten
The gloom and scary darkness
In a life full of sadness

The moon brightens all
But hardly does one find
Solace and a blissful sight
Waking up in the midst of night

The rain falls every season
But the thirst in a heart
The desire for some coolness
Grows and makes one restless

The soft breeze always flows
And fills the world with life
But briskly enough it blows
The lamp of hope that glows

Isar

One day

Every single day I live
Has no meaning at all
Except sudden thoughts of you
That shower golden moments a few

Some days just pass by
Seems as if they quickly fly
Rising and hiding their faces away
From hurdles in paths that lay

I know little the proper cure
But realize what can really save
And break the chains of my hands
In this life full for barren lands

Your smile brightens a lonely day
Hence the thought erupts
I should live this life of mine
Just; One day at a time

Isar

Miracle

It was a dark night
Silent like never before
Eyes closed head in hands
He sat stiffly pensive

All around it seemed
A clear vision of pain
Yet he believed it was
A mirror image of his life

All at once a star
Twinkled above the sky
Sparkling enough to light
His eyes in disbelief

The birds he heard
Dead leaves rustled around
Soft breeze from nowhere
Broke his uneasy calmness

Isar

Kaleidoscopic Maze

Careless strides, deep thoughts
Unknown of what lay ahead
Silence and whispers together
I walked with queries unsaid

The dense smoke of wilderness
Engulfed the surroundings
Selfishness in a selfless world
Untrue words spoken, I heard

A fresh fragrance drew closer
Clear and pure like rosy dew
Softly refreshing this foggy soul
I knew it was the angel of hope

Gleaming eyes, malleable words
Splendor words, effortless truth
Glowing love in the unlit haze
I lost in the kaleidoscopic maze

Isar

Dreaming

She had been in my dreams
Not one night but hundreds
She had become a part
Of my sleepless and lonely times

Darkness in the day I saw
There shone a lamp of hope
Craving for that desire
I lived an incomplete life

I dreamt of the time
When she would be mine
But feared to wake up again
And face the fact of sunshine

The day was like a heavenly boon
She came to me in the reality of life
And answered the question I longed for
“Yes, dreaming can also be fruitful”, She said

Isar

Unknown mist

My life was full of miseries
It resembled the desert long
Thirst and death at every step
No soul to hear a song

A sandstorm lay inside me
Uneasiness all the time
No hope of a single cloud
No one to hear me loud

Living was what I envied
A living dead I was
Hatred flowing in my veins
My every win; a loss

Then came a ray of hope
A soft breeze in the dense smoke
It was music, I heard it’s sound
You came and life I found

Like an oasis in the desert
Like a moon in the midst of night
A smile that left stars spellbound 

You came and love I found

Isar

The Beginning

I recall them tonight
The nights I never slept
Days I never lived
Words I hardly said

For years I had walked
The long narrow path
Tirelessly all alone
Not knowing who she was

My odes all for her
Strange thoughts weird dreams
Deep within my heart
She had always been a part

Yesterday was another day
I found her so very close
An illusion that was ever far
The breeze I was looking for

Isar

Beautiful Eyes

I see my future in your eyes
My life, oh! In your hand it lies

In my days of joy and pain
I would be stronger if you say
That you would be with me
To share the darkest day

I have to pass through deserts
I have to walk to storms
But if you stand by me
I am ready to face the storms

Abhor and hatred everywhere
I see them pass in every way
But the glow of love and hope
In your eyes I see them lay

Eyes those beautiful eyes
Let me tell you again and again
In them my future lies
My life and death ; My joy and pain…

Isar